I don’t know how long or short this post will be or if it will even make sense but, I just feel like writing something about the way I am feeling.
I am tired.
And not that, go to sleep at a decent hour and wake up refreshed tired. I am physically, emotionally and mentally tired. Simple daily things I am forgetting to do (like take out the trash) and everything just seems difficult to do. I don’t know.
I want my blog to be a place where I can share exciting times and happy thoughts but sometimes it’s necessary to write about the things that aren’t so fun. I’ve been so mentally tired, that all the things I want to do when I come home like, (blog, edit videos, edit photos, play with my dog, etc.) I don’t do. I just find myself laying in my bed trying to will myself into doing all those things. And yea, some days I am able to do a few things on my list but more days are spent trying to convince myself, than actual doing.
Adulting is fucking HARD, especially Black Woman Adulting. Between work, school and life in general… I am tired.
This post is about to be all over the place because I am just typing but, man, I am so tired of reading all these articles about millennials this and millennials that. I don’t understand the media’s fascination with me and my peers. Oh and don’t get me started on the ones who are talking about us not saying “excuse me”, not having manners and other “facts” that aren’t true. *rolls eyes* You want to know what I know to be true about my peers and I; we work fucking hard and still drowning in debt, still making far less than we should be and still feeling pressure of trying to build a future for ourselves and potential families.
Everything has been nothing but stress for me and usually I try to deal with it by myself (which I know isn’t always the best idea) but I felt like writing it out on my blog today. I like to talk about self-care a lot, especially in the Black community with everything that is going on however, it becomes increasingly more difficult to “fake it, until you make it” when its constant, on top of other life problems (Donald Trump being a presidential candidate). It’s like we need a trigger warning posted to simple watch the news.
I’m sure some people will read this and be like “Stop complaining” or “First world problems” but everyone has rough days, weeks and months, even in the “first world” so, boo bye.
I’m not sure where this post went, but I have some time off coming up so I am going to take full advantage to recharge myself because, girl, EVERYTHING is getting on my nerves.